Three days after my third place finish, still full of adrenaline, I show up early at the Surgeon's office with high expectations of minor damage and a speedy recovery.
Sitting on the exam table, I play it all out in my head. Doctor comes in....Mr. Windham, " Looks like everything is alright. Little therapy should fix you up."
I'm brought back to reality with the opening of the door and Dr. Atkins asking when would you like to schedule the surgery. Gulp! Surgery! This is not, what I had in mind. "Are you sure?" Yes, Mr. Windham.
"You have a 90% tear in your rotator cuff and a possible tear in your bicep. Oh, and by the way did I mention bone spurs and arthritis?"
Okay, How about in six month?
And he responded, "How 'bout Friday?" All that needs to be cleaned up ASAP, if you want to continue with your life like it is." WHOA!
Now we have surgery. Now we have it in three days! I'm no longer full of adrenaline...To say the least I am devastated.
LORD, Here we go again.... I have never been put to sleep. I have never had stitches. I have never felt so vunerable.
What about my family? They depend on me , LORD! And I have always depended on you to meet our needs through my physical body. But now???????????? This is different.
Doubt.
Fear.
And then, I remember whom has always been there, even when no one else could be.
I recall the faithfulness of the One whom said He would never leave, nor forsake me. The One that bled and died at Calvary. The One that I am Trusting in eternity for and my never dying soul with.
My mind shifts gears, to Children's Hospital and thoughts of my Brother in Christ, Toby McAteer, battling with Cancer and how the LORD is using him and his family as an inspiration. He has blessed me with his strength and courage in the LORD. A very quite man with a loud testimony!
The Bible says our faith must be tried and it brings to mind a song, We'll Understand It Better By and By.
I guess we will chalk this up as growing pains.
Surgery went well. The LORD brought me through it and did some handy work of his own before the surgeon got in there.
Therapy is another story at another time.
Until then, GOD is GREAT!
To GOD be the glory!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~Yancy
